My most dear, most kind, most precious, wish-fulfilling one,
I am very sorry for the many eons of delay it took to reply to you. I checked regarding your situation, and this is what came out:
Thirteen Chakra: Geshe-la needs to recite this twenty times. This is from the zungdu (Wyl: gzungs bsdus). [A collection of dharanis found in the Kangyur].
Regarding what you are experiencing, this is normally the kind of thing that happens when there is black magic. This is what happens.
The only thing that can help is practice; that is the main thing to do. Even though somebody harmed you, this came from your past self-cherishing thought. You harmed others in the past and that’s why you receive harm now.
Meditating on guru devotion, renunciation, bodhicitta, right view—the merits from this are unbelievable, unbelievable, unbelievable. Especially doing any practice with bodhicitta, you collect more than skies of merits. When doing tonglen, each time you are giving your happiness, your body, enjoyments and merits, all the results up to enlightenment. Each time you are giving, you get more than skies of merits, and each time you are taking, again you collect more than skies of merits.
Meditating on guru devotion, renunciation, bodhicitta and right view, you will have no regrets and however much you practice, the merits are always there. Otherwise, just with external methods, whatever you try doesn’t work until you deal with the black magic. It could also be the cause of your breakup with your partner. That could also be connected, although I am not sure.
Some people who have the karma and who know the pujas—the monks and monasteries who know the pujas and prayers, the specific pujas for the monasteries to do—then the problem is stopped. But sometimes a lot of pujas happen and there is much expense, and still the problem doesn’t stop. So it really depends on karma and merits also.
This is one area that scientists in the West don’t know much about yet. They don’t have the power to help, and they don’t know in the West about black magic and what can be done (pujas and prayers). Western society may not accept black magic.
I want to tell you a story about a nun who started her own nunnery. She had black magic, in Tibetan it’s called chekar, so she asked me what to do because one by one all the students there became negative and they left and didn’t come back. Even the main person, the manager became negative and left, so there was nobody helping her. I told her to do Lion-face Dakini practice; I don’t remember the number, but one or two months of the practice. After that, gradually all the people came back, so this is very clear proof. There are other examples I have.
I have just requested the Lama Gyupas at Kopan Monastery to do Lion-face Dakini practice for you, so they will start quickly.
From your side, if you know tonglen meditation, this is what you can do.
With much love and prayers ...
