My most dear, most kind, most precious, wish-fulfilling one,
Thank you very much for your kind email. I do understand your needs and feelings.

Now for you, the most important thing in your life is to study Liberation in the Palm of Your Hand. Please read it five times from beginning to end. Whatever you don’t understand, write down the questions and discuss with an elder student who has studied the lamrim or with a geshe who has a good translator.

Understanding the lamrim is the most important thing, whether you are a lay person or a monk. To understand the lamrim as much as possible, to leave an imprint as much as possible—whether you are a lay person or a monk, this is the most important thing.

Later, when your mind is very, very strong, you are allowed to be a monk again if you wish. Actually in the Tibetan tradition you can be ordained three times in one life if you are a man, but you cannot take ordination again if you are a woman. In the Thai tradition you can, and in the Chinese tradition you can re-ordain eight times if you are a man and for a woman four or six times, I’m not sure. I’m not sure if they made this up or if there is a reference from the great pandits in the texts.

In the Tibetan tradition I haven't seen the text that says a man can become a monk three times but for women it is not allowed. I think this is because women easily disrobe, if it were allowed.

When you are very strong, if you want to, then you can become a monk again.

Please live your life with bodhicitta in every action that you do, day and night.

With much love and prayers ...