To the nuns at the "Life as a Western Buddhist
Nun Conference"
A letter by Lama Zopa Rinpoche
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I offer
my greetings for this inspiring nuns' conference, which is
helping to bring enlightenment and peace not only to this
world but to all sentient beings... The very essential practice
of the teachings of the kind, compassionate Buddha is the
practicing purely the pratimoksha vows. This helps one to
keep the bodhisattva vows purely, based on cherishing others
and living for others. This means one is able to keep the
tantric vows more easily. As explained in the teachings, the
container is the pratimoksha vows, the water is the bodhisattva
vows, the reflection is the tantric vows. This shows how the
later one depends on the previous one.
To
do this essential practice one needs to understand the pratimoksha
vows. But just understanding them is not enough. One must
practice mindfulness to cherish and guard the vows in daily
life as one would the wish-fulfilling jewel. And if one breaks
them, one must apply the antidotes, the remedies, as soon
as possible in case some degeneration occurs; one needs to
purify with confession so the mental continuum doesn't become
heavily obscured and so there is space and freedom for the
path to enlightenment to manifest within us.
Some
nunneries have rules like the military. It is said in the
Bodhicaryavatara, however, "What is the use of so many rules...except
for guiding the mind." One thing is to look after one's mind,
but the other thing about the vinaya—in order to cause faith
in the Triple Gem to develop in the minds of others—is to
not lose one's vows. There is the possibility of causing great
harm to others' minds. But there is also no question about
the incredible benefit sangha can offer to people in the world
and to all sentient beings.
Dharma
education is very important, but this alone won’t give satisfaction…in
life. You know this very well. Strong practice is needed.
One must meditate on impermanence, death and the lower realm
sufferings for months and years. Of course, there are emptiness
and bodhicitta as well, but I think the meditations on death
and the lower realms are the crucial ones, the ones that help
the quick realization of emptiness and bodhicitta, that prevent
obstacles and purify existing ones.
Living
with this fundamental practice...immediately cuts the evil
thought of the eight worldly dharmas. One feels immediate
peace and satisfaction in the heart and in life.
As
mentioned in the Kadampa teachings in the Lam-rim and in Maitreya
Buddha's teachings, the very first thought-transformation
practice that opens the door to the holy Dharma is to realize
that by following desire one can never find satisfaction.
As Lama Tsong Khapa explained, following desire leads to so
many problems. If we meditate according to our past and present
experiences...we can understand this clearly. Our own life
experience becomes a commentary on the result of Dharma practice.
It shows the need to keep the mind free from desire—desire
being the basis of all problems and obstacles, including anger.
You
can understand how anger is related to desire. When desire,
the evil thought of the eight worldly dharmas, arises and
one finds the pleasures of this life are interfered with,
anger arises. You can see how other delusions are dependent
on desire.... Our many problems are the result of following
the evil thought of the eight worldly dharmas, the desire
clinging to this life. We are always experiencing the shortcomings
of desire. Those who try to do a little Dharma practice experience
the benefits of Dharma practice, giving freedom to themselves
rather than giving themselves the evil thought of the eight
worldly dharmas and becoming a slave to them.
When
you are able to give freedom to yourself, when you have split
from the evil thought of the eight worldly dharmas through
living in the mindfulness of death and the sufferings of the
lower realms, and linking all this to karma by relating these
meditations to yourself—not like watching a movie or a football
game—then being sangha, living in the moral law, will appear
as a great protection and support in your life. Being sangha
will be incredibly precious and important to you.
With
this understanding, this attitude, your life becomes very
enjoyable. There’s so much peace, happiness and fulfillment
in the heart as you know more and more that you're benefiting
others.
When
you don't have this view and attitude, when you don't split
yourself from the evil thought of the eight worldly dharmas,
when you don't give freedom to yourself by applying the remedies
through remembering death and impermanence related to the
lower realms and karma, and when you are a friend of and live
with the evil thought of the eight worldly dharmas, it as
your guru, then living in ordination and the moral law appears
as a prison—because this is not what the evil thought of the
eight worldly dharmas wants.
Having
received all the important teachings so many times, having
studied Tibetan Mahayana Buddhism for so many years—even having
extensive intellectual understanding of the Dharma—and having
lived in ordination for so many years, why does one still
have a feeling that something is missing in the heart! Something
feels empty; one doesn't find satisfaction... : "Me, me, me—I
don't find satisfaction! Okay,...living in vows, knowing the
benefits and so on, but what about me! What about my happiness!"
All these problems are due to one's attitude. It is not that
one hasn't studied Dharma extensively or doesn't have qualified
teachers. As far as gurus go, where else should one look if
one has His Holiness the Dalai Lama!
The
basic thing is the attitude. The sickness, the chronic disease,
is the attitude that the main goal of life is not liberation
from samsara or enlightenment but is simply gaining happiness
the of this life. This is what the evil thought of the eight
worldly dharmas is looking for. This is the source of most
problems and obstacles. Even though you are living with robes,
living in ordination and studying so many things, still the
heart feels empty and you don't find satisfaction.... As soon
as you change your attitude into that of seeking liberation
from samsara, when liberation becomes your main goal, suddenly
you're free from obstacles, your heart is free from pain and
you find enjoyment in your ordination vows. Then you will
respect your own vows as well as those of others.
I
also think that one particular nun's capacity isn't necessarily
the capacity of other nuns, such as mixing with people, doing
various services, working and teaching Dharma. When you aren't
able to live your daily life with intensive meditation on
the lam-rim, when you don't have realizations of death and
renunciation of the path of the lower capable being—not having
stabilized these meditations in your daily life—then continually
mixing with people can easily affect your mind. You may lose
your ordination and become unable to continue this way of
practice.
So my conclusion is that
sanghas should attempt as much as possible to do retreat,
especially in solitary places. Even if one can't be in retreat
all the time, one should attempt it again and again, to recharge
and to take care of oneself.
Like
Kadampa Geshe Kharak Gomchung said, "Until one's mind is stabilized
with realizations, physically mixing with people and doing
service for others is a distraction and becomes an obstacle."
This great meditator advised us to spend more time in meditation
and practice. This is my main emphasis and my own point of
view too, that for most people the best is to do retreat,
lam-rim retreat. But of course, if one's mind is strongly
stabilized there is no problem doing social work.
Some
sanghas who studied for a long time and then went into solitary
retreat have told me that what gave them the most satisfaction
was retreat; they discovered unbelievable meaning and benefit
from doing retreat.
What
I'm saying here is this: there are all these studies and things
to do in life, but there's also your heart to take care of;
you need to fill up what is empty. This is especially important
for Western people—it's very different for Tibetans. For Western
people, the feeling of the heart, satisfaction of the heart,
is very important, otherwise they cannot continue living in
ordination, it becomes more and more uncomfortable...
With prayers and greetings
to everyone at the meeting and with prayers that you all have
a most beneficial life.
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