My most dear, most kind, most precious, wish-fulfilling one,
I am sorry it took many eons to reply. If you think like that, that you do not exist, then you do not have to work or to eat or to do anything. Anyway, I am just joking mentioning this.

My advice to you is to recite the White Umbrella prayer, the elaborate one. Recite this every day for two weeks.

Also recite the Heart Sutra forty times, if possible, with meditation, recognizing that oneself and all the obstacles are a hallucination. What appears and what we believe as real, it does not exist.

I am not saying there is no I. There is an I creating good karma, happiness, suffering, the lower realms, nirvana and enlightenment. That I, what is there, exists in mere name. It is merely labeled by the mind and there is a valid base, but even that is merely labeled by our mind. Nothing exists from its own side. The whole world, the family, etc., do not exist from their own side.

If you think like this, this is the essence of the Heart Sutra, then that is excellent. This gives the main idea. If you can follow according to the words of that, which is meditation, then it’s very good, because it overcomes or eliminates all the obstacles. Not only that, but most importantly, it eliminates the root of samsara—the ignorance holding the real I, and from that, it eliminates karma and delusion and from that, it eliminates even the oceans of samsara suffering.

So this way of meditating is the Madhyamaka Prasangika view of emptiness. This is the only wisdom of emptiness, the only one which can eliminate the root of samsara—the ignorance holding the I as real. There is the emptiness of the other schools, such as Vaibhashika (Great Exposition), Sautrantika (Sutra) and Cittamatra (Mind Only), and there is also the Madhyamaka Svatantrika (Middle Way Autonomy) school. These other three schools, their emptiness, their view of ultimate reality, does not eliminate the root of samsara, but it helps us come to understand the Madhyamaka Prasangika view.

Developing wisdom with bodhicitta and developing bodhicitta with wisdom, then we achieve the dharmakaya and rupakaya, and we achieve enlightenment. Then we are able to liberate sentient beings from the oceans of samsaric sufferings and take them to enlightenment. So the motivation for reciting the Heart Sutra is for this, to enlighten oneself and all sentient beings. Also, the motivation for reciting the White Umbrella prayer should be similar, to bring all sentient beings to enlightenment.

If we don’t harm others, no one will harm us. It is said in A Guide to the Bodhisattva Way of Life by the great bodhisattva Shantideva:

In the past I gave harm to others,
Therefore, sentient beings harm me.
Therefore, it is so worthwhile to receive harm from others.
(Ch. 6. v. 42)

What it’s saying is that the self-cherishing thought is like a dictator, thinking “I can do any harm to others, but no one can harm me.” This is really an ego trip and there is no reason for it. So, it’s worthwhile to receive harm, because the self-cherishing thought and the ego holding the real I are defeated.

In the teachings it is said that the I, the self-cherishing thought, not only caused us harm from beginningless rebirths and made us suffer in the oceans of the six realms and receive all the suffering in the past, but if we follow this, it will cause us to experience the same suffering in the future. Not only that, we harm numberless sentient beings by killing them, eating them, by doing everything to harm the numberless beings—in the past, from beginningless rebirths until now, and also in the future.

If we follow the self-cherishing thought, that’s how it is the real enemy. If there is no self-cherishing thought, there is no enemy outside. If there is no anger inside, then there’s no enemy outside. By destroying the inner enemy, the anger; if we kill the inner enemy, the self-cherishing thought, the anger, then the numberless enemies outside get killed.

All the outside enemies, that we believed in, actually came from the inner enemy. Who harms us outside is the correct one, because it harms our inner enemy, the I. So it’s worthwhile to see the harm as positive, it’s an unbelievable chance.

The spirits who cause the 424 diseases, the 360 spirit possessions, and the 180,000 gek interferers are the best helpers for us, to destroy our enemy. They all support us. This is the way to use all undesirable things. This is the best way, for the best happiness, using [the problems] in the path to enlightenment. It is the best puja and it helps us achieve enlightenment.

Our enemy is the I, who we dedicate our life to all the time. The self-cherishing thought is like a guru, who we treat like our guru.

So all those human beings and non-human beings are unbelievably kind, so precious, so precious, because they are all helping us to be free from samsara. They are all helping us by destroying our self-cherishing thought. From this we are able to generate bodhicitta and achieve enlightenment.

They are all helping us, therefore they are unbelievably, unbelievably kind, extremely, extremely kind. Even if we offer them skies of wish-granting jewels or diamonds to thank them, it is not enough to repay their kindness.

If you are able to rejoice and to think in this way, wow, wow, wow, wow! Unbelievable, unbelievable! Most unbelievable! This is the best Dharma practice, the best thought transformation.

That means you are able to use any undesirable thing in your life, and give it to your enemy, this self-cherishing thought, the I, the real I. Then you will have no obstacles in your life, and any obstacles you see, you can utilize them in the path to enlightenment.

Thank you very much. Good night, because I wrote this to you in the nighttime, until almost two a.m., so I am saying good night.

In regard to your main deity, to practice for your quickest enlightenment in order to enlighten all beings the quickest it is: Most Secret Hayagriva and Chenrezig Gyalwa Gyatso.

From these two deities you can choose, depending on which of these you feel closer to. You can take both initiations, if the opportunity comes. Then whichever you feel strongest then you can do the retreat, or you can do retreat for both deities. Not only do the retreat, but practice in your daily life. After you have had the initiation, then practice. Do the sadhana and retreat, do the practice in daily life and in that way, through that, you will become the deity and achieve enlightenment.

The other thing is to do is the practice called The Method to Transform a Suffering Life into Happiness (Including Enlightenment). [This text now has the title: How to Make My Lives Wish-fulfilling.] This is very good for you to practice.

With much love and prayers ...